just venting

ive been feeling all sorts of things lately, but mostly i have been trying to not get so caught up in being so materialistic.  truth is when we die the only thing we are taking with us is our souls, and the one thing i want most to take with me are my memories. 

its so easy to get carried away in wanting so many things, when at the end of the day all we're trying to do is survive. 

I ♥ Hair Accesories! I just do!!

Thanks to Pinterest, i've been inspired to buy and try to create more hair pieces.  I snagged this little beauty from yes you guessed it, Forever 21!  I walked in there and it was the first thing that caught my eye, and the last thing I walked out with. 

Back While I Last

You ever have one of those days where you just feel like EVERYTHING is wrong with you?  I've been having a lot of those lately.  I should probably see a doctor for a few of my problems too.  I've been really lightheaded, dizzy, and tired. 

I got off birth control because it was making me depressed, like on the real and the weight gain was no joke.  I felt numb, even though I didn't pick fights with my husband or have mood swings, it made me stay at a constant pace, never truly happy or never sad. 

Well lately i've been feeling depressed.  I don't know if it's the weather, and if it is i'm just so damn sick of the cold and ready for it to be warm again.  I am so over having it be 78 degrees one day then 37 the next.  Worst part is I feel like i'm taking it out on Keenan, but that little man has been testing my patience.  Yesterday I was feeding him lasagna and he didn't want to finish his last bite, so I told him to chew it and he spat in my face.  Man did I blow up, but he truly could see how mad I was so he cuddled for a long time with me to make sure I still loved him.  I will always love him, he was created inside me. 

Macaron's...an accomplishment I feel!

So i've always wondered how these tasted because they are SO cute!!

I watched tutorials over and over again on youtube just so I could get it right.  I made my own almond flour and it was a success..well all of it was thankfully. 

In these macarons..

2 egg whites

1 cup of powdered sugar

3/4 cup of almond flour

raspberry flavoring

1 dot of red food coloring (even though it didn't show up well after baking)

-whip egg whites still they have stiff peaks, fold in sifted almond flour and sugar, add in flavoring and food coloring..pipe and let these sit for 30 min or til they've got a skin.

It's all in the prepping and technique.  If you can get yourself organized first it helps mostly, esp when it comes to baking.  It is also so important to not overfold the egg whites or else you won't get a "foot".  I also baked these at 300 degrees because I could tell these would burn at 375. 

I've Been Juicin'

(1 bunch of kale, 2 green apples, 2 large celery stalks, 1 pear)

Last year I watched a movie on Netflix called Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead.  It is an awesome and inspirational movie.  It pretty much makes absolute sense in why we should juice! 

Now I'm not going hardcore juicing straight, but I think it's a really great way to get the nutrients straight into my body and fast!  Knowing my body, I know it takes forever for my food to travel out the other way TMI I know.  It makes sense for me to just drink my food if I can, and RAW because that's the best way to do it.  Overcooked vegetables obviously aren't as nutritionous so, once again, this is the quickest way to get to my system. 

The model of the juicer I bought is called the Breville Ikon Multi-Speed Juicer.  Breville is known for being one of the best juicing brands.  It's also featured in the movie.  I first borrowed one from a friend of mine and I loved it. 

(2 large carrots, handful of blueberries, 2 pears..can't remember but there was a good amount in here too)

I'm going to try to use the pulp in a meatloaf/meatball of chicken patty mix,

Princess Chain ♥

There are people out there who will try to take every drop of sunshine you have out of you.

I love being me (girly, happy, friendly), but sometimes I feel like it's too much for others (even my husband).  At the end of the day, I know that i've survived and I will always be me.  ♥  I find that we balance each other out, my husband and I.  When i'm in the clouds, he pulls me back to earth.  I know he's only doing it so I won't get hurt, and it's simply just the truth.  I bring him back up to earth from hell, where he seems to live most of the time.  I shouldn't call it hell but it's a dark place for sure.  Earth is what we choose to make it, and I choose happy.  ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

My Hair ...when i don't style it..

I'm lucky to have straight non frizzy hair when I wake up.  Oddly enough I love wearing it curled though.  Lately i've been concentrating on losing weight for Florida and the summer, so my hair sorta just stays eh.  It looks like I styled my bangs too but they fall like that if I just brush it and leave it like that.  Trying to grow them out though.  *sigh*

i've got florida on my mind